Revelation

Oh Yes!

The whole world runs by actions…not by feelings, right? And fools like me keep lingering to feelings. They give utmost importance to feelings. They forget truth.They ignore falsehood. They overlook everything…Every thing and everything.

They cling on to feelings. Only thing that concerns them is feeling. Only means by which they react to things is by feeling-They empathise…

They get lost SO much in their world of ‘feelings’ that they lose all their abilities of rational thinking and analysis!!!

Ha! Ha!
It seems I am out here to rationalize my mistake.

No
NO.

I am not here to rationalize. I’m here to spit out all my agony. I am here to vent out all frustation.

Yes.

I trusted myself. I thought i would never miss feelings. I believed that this is the girl who cares for feelings more than anything else. Before doing anything, I thought I would make sure that I would not be hurt anyone by doing it. And incase I feel my deed would be hurting anyone, I would drop…however important the task may prove to be, I always felt nothing on this earth is more important than someone’s pain.

But I have missed my motto.
I have violated my principle.

I gifted pain to my dearest friend–DEEP THROBBING PAIN–as she expains.

I dont understand what to write…
I have pained her. Its a fact. She had been weeping…….bitterly…
I have done it–deliberately. How mean…huh

If I realy care for her feelings, why did I do it?
I dont know. But its not an excuse, is it?

It was I who did it.
I have dine it with my stupid mail….a million additional things, perhaps, I dont know.

Honestly, I dont feel like writing to any one anymore…
I am not able to decide–I must be so immature that I dont realize what my sentences mean….Or I must be truly senseless as my words say…

I dont know.

Just one solid fact remains—SHE IS PAINED.

I HAVE MADE A MISTAKE OF FEELING…THAT TOO WITH MY BELOVED FRIEND….

Worth remembering, is it not!!!
Ha! Ha!
Thank god, I havent turned mad yet…Or have I??
Who knows??!!!